On the other hand, it seemed clear to her that whether she wanted to be a slave or not, she was a slave, and not by dint of the collar, or brand, but by dint of her deepest nature.
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What was wrong with her? Don't you want to be free, she cried to herself.
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Was she not supposed to cry such things to herself? Was it not expected? Didn't she want to be free? Surely she knew that her society had insisted that she must want to be free, so what was it, deep within her, deeper than her society, more profound than convention, that wanted rather to love and serve, to be owned will-lessly, to be mastered and dominated? But then she realized that her male-dominated society had imposed its values on both sexes, that it had generalized its own preconceptions.
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What was good for the male must be good for the female, and so on.
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Were they not the same, were they not identical? Was it not like the foolish, ignorant male who, finding his female lover suddenly, impulsively, on her knees before him, looking up lovingly, rendering him the homage and obeisance her nature yearns to give, sweatingly, embarrassedly hurries her, scolding, to her feet, admonishing her, in effect, to act more like a man.
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And so she, shamed, rises up, still trying to please him, despite his denial of her momentarily exposed depths.
She did not want to be chained on a public shelf.
On the other hand, it seemed clear to her that whether she wanted to be a slave or not, she was a slave, and not by dint of the collar, or brand, but by dint of her deepest nature.
What was wrong with her? Don't you want to be free, she cried to herself.
Was she not supposed to cry such things to herself? Was it not expected? Didn't she want to be free? Surely she knew that her society had insisted that she must want to be free, so what was it, deep within her, deeper than her society, more profound than convention, that wanted rather to love and serve, to be owned will-lessly, to be mastered and dominated? But then she realized that her male-dominated society had imposed its values on both sexes, that it had generalized its own preconceptions.
What was good for the male must be good for the female, and so on.
Were they not the same, were they not identical? Was it not like the foolish, ignorant male who, finding his female lover suddenly, impulsively, on her knees before him, looking up lovingly, rendering him the homage and obeisance her nature yearns to give, sweatingly, embarrassedly hurries her, scolding, to her feet, admonishing her, in effect, to act more like a man.
And so she, shamed, rises up, still trying to please him, despite his denial of her momentarily exposed depths.
- (Prize of Gor, Chapter )