Was it on my account that a city had perished? Was it I who had brought disaster to its people, to my father, to my friends and Talena? Had I been too foolish to understand that I was nothing before the power of the Priest-Kings? Was I now to wander the forlorn roads and fields of Gor in guilt and agony, a wretched example of the fate which the Priest-Kings could mete out to the foolish and proud? Then suddenly I ceased to pity myself, and I was shocked, for looking into the eyes of the robed figure I saw human warmth in them, tears for me.
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It was pity, the forbidden emotion, and yet he could not restrain himself.
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Somehow the power I had felt in his presence seemed to have vanished.
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I was now only in the presence of a man, a fellow human being even though he wore the sublime robes of the proud caste of Initiates.
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He seemed to be struggling with himself, as though he wanted to speak his own words and not those of the Priest-Kings.
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He seemed to shake with pain, his hands pressed against his head, trying to speak to me, trying to tell me something.
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One hand stretched out to me, and the words, his own, far from the ringing authority of his former tones, were hoarse and almost inaudible.
Was it on my account that a city had perished? Was it I who had brought disaster to its people, to my father, to my friends and Talena? Had I been too foolish to understand that I was nothing before the power of the Priest-Kings? Was I now to wander the forlorn roads and fields of Gor in guilt and agony, a wretched example of the fate which the Priest-Kings could mete out to the foolish and proud? Then suddenly I ceased to pity myself, and I was shocked, for looking into the eyes of the robed figure I saw human warmth in them, tears for me.
It was pity, the forbidden emotion, and yet he could not restrain himself.
Somehow the power I had felt in his presence seemed to have vanished.
I was now only in the presence of a man, a fellow human being even though he wore the sublime robes of the proud caste of Initiates.
He seemed to be struggling with himself, as though he wanted to speak his own words and not those of the Priest-Kings.
He seemed to shake with pain, his hands pressed against his head, trying to speak to me, trying to tell me something.
One hand stretched out to me, and the words, his own, far from the ringing authority of his former tones, were hoarse and almost inaudible.
- (Outlaw of Gor, Chapter )