In horror I realized that what he had done had been as much a reflex as the blinking of an eye or the jerking of a knee under a physician's hammer.
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It was the reflex of an animal whose instinct it is to destroy before it can be destroyed, or of a human being who has been tooled into such an animal, a human being who has been conditioned to kill swiftly, savagely, or be killed in the same fashion.
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I was covered with sweat.
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I knew that I had been an instant from death.
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Was this the gentle Cabot I had known? "Harrison!" he cried.
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"Harrison Smith!" He lifted me easily to my feet, his words rapid and stumbling, trying to reassure me.
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"I'm sorry," he kept saying, "Forgive me! Forgive me, Old Man!" We looked at one another.
In horror I realized that what he had done had been as much a reflex as the blinking of an eye or the jerking of a knee under a physician's hammer.
It was the reflex of an animal whose instinct it is to destroy before it can be destroyed, or of a human being who has been tooled into such an animal, a human being who has been conditioned to kill swiftly, savagely, or be killed in the same fashion.
I was covered with sweat.
I knew that I had been an instant from death.
Was this the gentle Cabot I had known? "Harrison!" he cried.
"Harrison Smith!" He lifted me easily to my feet, his words rapid and stumbling, trying to reassure me.
"I'm sorry," he kept saying, "Forgive me! Forgive me, Old Man!" We looked at one another.
- (Outlaw of Gor, Chapter )