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Book 1. (73 results) Tarnsman of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
1	137	Things grew black for a moment, but I shook myself and clenched my teeth, breathed in the sharp, cold mountain air, once, twice, three times, slowly, gathering the piercing contact of reality into my lungs, reassuring myself that I was alive, not dreaming, that I held in my hands a letter with an in...	10
1	169	Still, if I could put a mile or so between myself and the old camp, that should be sufficient to give myself the margin of safety I needed—from what I didn't know.	10
3	277	I smiled to myself in spite of my fear, amused at the remark I had addressed to myself.	10
5	107	"Why?" What could I tell her? That I had come from another world, that I was determined that all the ways of Gor should not be mine, or that I had cared for her, somehow, so helpless in her condition—that she had moved me to regard her not as an instrumentality of mine or of the Council, but ...	10
16	104	It would be suicide to attempt to cut my way in, but Pa-Kur was in the environs of Ar, directing the siege operations, and I might, with luck, pass myself off as his messenger; who would be bold enough to deny entrance to one whose helmet bore the golden slash of the courier? Without hesitation I cl...	10
18	172	I seemed to be beside myself and fought as if I might not be what I knew I was, what I thought myself to be—Tarl Cabot, a simple warrior, one man.	10
1	14	I graduated decently, having failed to astound either myself or my tutors.	10
1	15	Like a large number of young men, I found myself passably educated, able to parse a sentence or so in Greek, and familiar enough with the abstractions of philosophy and economics to know that I would not be likely to fit into that world to which they claimed to bear some obscure relation.	10
1	44	Primarily, I was exhilarated, being alone, with myself and the green pines and patches of snow.	10
1	89	"The message has been delivered," I said to myself, feeling a bit silly as I said it.	10
1	206	Once I startled a small band of deer and found myself in the midst of their bounding shapes buffeting me in the darkness.	10
1	209	I fell to the ground, gasping for breath, suddenly asking myself why I had ran.	10
2	28	The building in which I found myself was apparently one of an indefinite number of towers, like endless flat cylinders of varying sizes and colors, joined by narrow, colorful bridges that arched lightly between them.	10
2	57	I was surprised to find myself accepting this stranger not only as a being of my world, but as the father I couldn't remember.	10
2	64	I was angry with myself.	10
2	98	Through the opening came a young girl, somewhat younger than myself, with blond hair bound back.	10
2	225	My father then spoke to me of the world on which I found myself.	10
3	22	Among these things, unfortunately, was berating those like myself who were hapless enough to fall within the ambit of his wrath.	10
3	34	* * * * In the next few weeks I found myself immersed in intensive activity, interspersed with carefully calculated rest and feeding periods.	10
3	186	I acknowledged to myself that I was inveterately, stubbornly right-handed, for better or worse.	10
3	239	I braced myself, wondering what was to occur.	10
4	1	The Mission I threw my right arm up to protect myself, the goad, attached by its strap to my wrist, flying wildly.	10
4	14	I seized the short mounting ladder swinging wildly from the saddle and climbed it, seating myself in the saddle, fastening the broad purple belt that would keep me from tumbling to my death.	10
4	76	"We were not sure of you, your father and myself, but today I am sure.	10
4	137	I smiled to myself.	10
4	138	"I am," Torm had said, "too practical to involve myself in the frivolities of government".	10
5	123	Then I thought to myself, a hundred tarns indeed! Forty perhaps, because she was a beauty.	10
6	45	I couldn't afford to carry the extra weight, but neither could I bring myself to cut the ladder free and send the girl hurtling to her death.	10
6	48	I passed the outermost cylinders of Ar and found myself free in the Gorean night, streaking for Ko-ro-ba.	10
6	70	When I opened my eyes, I found myself partially adhering to a vast network of broad, elastic strands that formed a structure, perhaps a pasang in width, and through which at numerous points projected the monstrous trees of the swamp forest.	10
6	71	I felt the network, or web, tremble, and I struggled to rise, but found myself unable to gain my feet.	10
6	78	In a moment the voice repeated the question, the volume of the sound being slightly increased, and then added, "Are you from the City of Ar?" "No," I said, taking part in what I believed must be some fantastic hallucination in which I madly conversed with myself.	10
6	82	I tensed myself for the sudden lateral chopping of those pincerlike jaws.	10
6	157	This made me angry, for some reason, though I thought myself well rid of her.	10
6	185	I also noted, though with considerably less pleasure, that the daughter of the Ubar was several inches taller than myself.	10
7	76	Without raising her eyes from the ground, the daughter of the Ubar said in a clear, distinct voice: "I submit myself".	10
7	130	I smiled to myself; the proud daughter of the Ubar in all her imperial regalia quite literally stank, stank of the swamps and the mud and of the perspiration exuded beneath that heavy covering, stank of heat and fear.	10
7	151	"Having submitted myself," she said, "it is my part to follow".	10
7	196	But then, shamefacedly, I admitted to myself that I had, while dragging her to the trees, intended to take her and that it had only been the sudden spell of her beauty which, paradoxically enough, had claimed my respect, forced me to recognize that selfishly I was about to injure or dominate what Na...	10
7	216	I turned slowly, my hands away from my body, and found myself facing two of the foot soldiers of Ar, one of them an officer, the other of common rank.	10
8	50	"This one I'll leash myself," he said, drawing a leading chain from his pouch and approaching the girl.	10
8	75	I took the sword and approached the other soldier, asking myself if I would kill him if he was still alive.	10
8	102	Her chin was on her knees, and when she saw me she asked—rather humbly, I thought, "May I clothe myself?" "Surely," I said.	10
9	62	Late in the day we glimpsed a solitary tarnsman high above the road, a lonely image that depressed both myself and Talena.	10
9	78	I suddenly sensed the rush of blood in her and in myself.	10
9	154	Rather, he suddenly launched a vicious attack, forcing me to defend myself as best I could.	10
9	175	I had scarcely finished bandaging his wound when I was aware of a ringing on metal, and, lifting my head, I saw myself surrounded by mounted spearmen, who wore the same livery as Kazrak.	10
10	38	I set myself to sell my life dearly.	10
10	82	"If I sell her, I will sell her myself," I said.	10
12	8	Slowly, with a stylized movement, the helmet was lifted, and I found myself staring up into a gray, lean, cruel face, a face that might have been made of metal.	10
12	83	Savagely those vast talons struck and closed on my body, forcing the frame for an instant beneath the water, then the tarn was beating the air angrily with his wings, struggling to lift his prey, and suddenly both myself and the heavy frame were pulled free from the water.	10
12	95	The flight of the tarn was serene, and I, grateful to be free at last of the painful Frame of Humiliation, found myself, strangely enough, almost reconciled to the savage but swift fate I knew awaited me.	10
12	157	I cursed myself for not having carried an extra tarn-goad somewhere in the saddle gear.	10
14	67	I felt numb, even my back, which presumably would have been a riot of pain if I had not felt myself near death.	10
14	130	"I myself, as one of the Afflicted, learned it from Mintar, of the Merchant Caste.	10
14	147	I swung myself up and began to climb one of the two ropes leading to the great bird above me.	10
14	148	In a few wild moments I had gained the saddle straps of the bird and hauled myself nearly to the weapon rings.	10
14	171	Then I slapped his leg with affection, climbed to the saddle, dropped the dead tarnsman to the ground, and fastened myself in the saddle straps.	10
15	61	Such lizards are extremely short-tempered, as well as carnivorous, and I had no intention of attracting attention to myself by beating my way through them with a spear butt.	10
15	97	I went to his locker near the mat and got out his Ka-la-na flask, taking a long draught myself and then shoving it into his hands.	10
15	143	Marlenus looked at Kazrak and myself.	10
15	153	Neither Kazrak nor myself spoke.	10
16	7	On the other hand, the thought of her in the tents of Pa-Kur enraged me, and I knew I would be unable to restrain myself indefinitely.	10
16	95	I felt a choking sensation in my throat and asked myself if I had sent my friend to his death.	10
17	90	I ran blindly through the now deserted streets of Pa-Kur's camp and found myself at last in the compound of Mintar.	10
17	111	I climbed the mounting ladder and fastened myself in the saddle, telling the keeper that the coin was his.	10
18	121	I knew that when I entered the palace my presence would be inexplicable to the guardsmen and that I would not long be able to pass myself off as a herald of Pa-Kur, certainly not when it became clear that it was my intention to depart with Marlenus.	10
18	129	I stood back, partly shielding myself with the gate.	10
18	173	The thought flamed through me in the violent delirium of battle that in those moments I was many men, an army, that no man could stand against me, that it was not my blade or my heart they faced but something I myself only dimly sensed, something intangible but irresistible, an avalanche, a storm, a...	10
18	181	I stood for a moment on the crest of the barricade and then lowered myself down the other side.	10
19	157	I began to press forward in attack, exposing myself more, but beating back his defense by the sheer weight and number of my blows.	10
20	54	I cut my hand with the ring, to make myself bleed, and I laughed with joy as I felt the pain and saw the blood.	10
20	65	I have given much more time to traveling, to reading, and to keeping myself fit.	10

Book 2. (84 results) Outlaw of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
4	2	It was a nightmarish journey, and a foolish one, trying to rush on through the night to find my city, bruising, falling, scraping myself in the darkness, yet driven on by such a torment of doubt and apprehension that I could allow myself no rest until I stood again on the lofty bridges of Ko-ro-ba.	10
6	59	Why was the girl alone? Had her protectors been killed? Was she perhaps an escaped slave, fleeing from a hated master? Could she be, like myself, an exile from Ko-ro-ba? Its peoples have been scattered, I said to myself, and no two stones and no two men of Ko-ro-ba may stand again side by side.	10
26	118	But even so I tell myself that it is still I who move myself, and not Priest-Kings, even though I might move in their patterns; if it is their intention that I should demand an accounting, it is my intention as well; if it is their game, it is also mine.	10
1	40	He spun like a tiger with a sudden cry of rage in some strange tongue and I found myself seized in hands like steel and with great force hurled helplessly across his knee, my spine an inch from being splintered like kindling wood.	10
1	61	I seemed to answer a desperate need for human fellowship in that lonely man, and, for my part, I was more than happy to count myself his friend, unfortunately perhaps, his only friend.	10
1	173	I found myself in the bleak white hallway outside his apartment, blinking at the exposed bulb in the ceiling.	10
2	78	I now dressed myself in the scarlet garb of a warrior of Gor.	10
2	87	I found myself thinking in Gorean, as fluently as though I had not been gone for seven years.	10
3	30	Accordingly, in spite of my eagerness to return to Ko-ro-ba, I decided that I would withdraw from the road, wrap myself in my cloak and spend the night in the shelter of some rocks, or perhaps crawl into the tangle of some thorn bushes, where one might sleep in relative security.	10
3	134	I made no move to defend myself.	10
4	21	I asked myself, in a sane moment, if I should not seek shelter, and I knew that I should, but I could not—because questions burned within me that I could not dare to answer.	10
4	104	In that brief moment, in the tiny pool of blood I held, I saw not myself but a strange face, like a globe of gold with disklike eyes, a face like none I had ever seen, a face that struck an eerie terror into my heart.	10
4	106	I could not even see myself reflected in the surface.	10
5	71	Was it on my account that a city had perished? Was it I who had brought disaster to its people, to my father, to my friends and Talena? Had I been too foolish to understand that I was nothing before the power of the Priest-Kings? Was I now to wander the forlorn roads and fields of Gor in guilt and a...	10
5	97	Suddenly he howled like a tortured dog, and what happened then I cannot bring myself to describe in detail.	10
5	113	He had told me to throw myself upon it, to avoid my shame, to frustrate for once the will of the mighty Priest-Kings of Gor.	10
5	115	"No, I shall not throw myself upon my sword.	10
6	117	I smiled to myself.	10
6	200	I gently disengaged myself from the girl, and shoved her behind me.	10
7	14	Indeed, even if the missile struck and penetrated my shield, I would have to cast the shield away and would find myself at a serious disadvantage.	10
8	25	Wandering in the city, I found myself in Tharna's marketplace.	10
8	63	In spite of this conviction, incomprehensibly, I found myself depressed by Tharna, and wondered if it, in its way, were not somehow, subtly, more barbaric, more harsh, less human than its ruder, less noble, more beautiful sisters.	10
8	82	I scorned to conceal this reason, though the object of my journey I reserved to myself.	10
9	32	I left the bridge, and descended through the spiral stairwell of the cylinder, soon finding myself on the streets again.	10
9	73	I smiled to myself, felt the sack of coins in my tunic, bent down and pushed the door open.	10
9	74	I descended three steps, and found myself in a warm, dimly lit, low-ceilinged room, cluttered with the low tables common on Gor, around which huddled groups of five or six of the gray-robed men of Tharna.	10
9	107	I had hardly settled myself behind the table when the proprietor had placed a large, fat pot of steaming Kal-da before me.	10
10	100	"I shall take you to the Tatrix myself".	10
11	15	At last I found myself in a large, vaulted room, lit by torches set in the walls.	10
11	49	My angry glare told her that I did not consider myself a slave.	10
11	65	I smiled to myself, thinking of the teeth of the urt and the whip, both of which had found my flesh.	10
12	57	"But now I am only a Degraded Woman, for I allowed myself to love".	10
12	113	"Yet," she said, "though I had worn the silver mask, and counted myself a woman of Tharna, when he took me in his arms, I did not find the sensation unpleasant".	10
12	126	"When he was safe," she said, "I did my duty, giving myself up, going before the High Council of Tharna and confessing all.	10
13	22	I looked about myself.	10
14	9	Grimly I smiled to myself.	10
14	15	That I might run, that I might scream and grovel, that I might try to cover myself in the sand would surely delight the silver masks of Tharna.	10
14	60	Though to most of those who observed it would seem that the tarn was unusually quiet, I sensed that it was trembling, like myself, with excitement.	10
14	103	I addressed myself to the giant tarn, as though he had been a warrior, a member of my caste.	10
14	166	In the beginning I had refrained from using it often because I feared that the effect of the cruel stimulus might be diminished through overfrequent application, but eventually I had abandoned its use altogether, retaining it only to protect myself in case the bird, particularly when hungry, should ...	10
14	179	But I knew even as I cried out that I was not free, and I burned with shame that I had so bespoke myself, for how could I be free when others in that gray city were bound? There was the girl, warm-eyed Linna, who had been kind to me, whose auburn hair was knotted with coarse string, who wore the gra...	10
14	188	I myself had always freed the bird to feed.	10
14	189	I thought it well to rest the bird, unsaddle it, and, also, frankly I did not find myself eager to be present at the feeding of a tarn.	10
15	3	I bitterly criticized myself for not having conditioned the bird to respond to voice commands.	10
15	35	I cursed myself for a thoughtless fool, for in the exhilaration of the flight, incomprehensible though it seems to me now, I had forgotten the Tatrix.	10
15	180	"Warrior," she said, her head lifting piteously, "must you exact so terrible a vengeance on me?" I smiled to myself.	10
16	68	Thorn and the warriors leaped forward, and I found myself ringed with their weapons.	10
17	37	It was Ost of Tharna, who, like Andreas and myself, had been condemned to the mines.	10
17	46	I myself guessed this was more than a coincidence.	10
17	85	I found myself gazing at the large circular hole in the ceiling of the narrow cell.	10
18	9	I myself, and my fellow slaves, had descended the central shaft.	10
18	50	"Can you imagine!" he laughed, "Lara, the Tatrix of Tharna, in pleasure silk!" The chain of slaves laughed, all except myself, and Andreas of Tor, who regarded me questioningly.	10
18	169	Like myself they were soaked to the skin and shivering, but alive.	10
19	59	I climbed one of the great chains to the huge windlass set above the shaft and found myself among hundreds of cheering men, their chains struck off, their hands boasting weapons even if only a piece of jagged rock or a pair of shackles.	10
19	158	The words of the man of Ar, he who had worn the robes of the Initiates, he who had brought me the message of the Priest-Kings on the road to Ko-ro-ba that violent night months before, rang in my ears, "Throw yourself upon your sword, Tarl of Ko-ro-ba!" But I knew then that I would not throw myself u...	10
20	47	Then, again, my memory blackened with fury at the thought of her imperious gesture, that insolent command, "Seize him!" Whatever her fate, I insisted to myself that it would have been richly deserved.	10
20	48	Yet I found myself hoping that perhaps she had not been destroyed.	10
20	116	I myself did not willingly entertain such hypotheses.	10
20	119	In spite of myself I admired the Priest-Kings.	10
21	11	I glanced about myself.	10
21	201	"I paid a hundred silver tarn disks for her myself!" Behind Targo the grizzled man quickly held up his fingers, opening and closing them five times.	10
21	211	I gathered that he was not bluffing, for how could he have known that I did not know the true value of the stones? How could he know that I had not purchased them and had them set in the scabbard myself? "You drive a hard bargain," I said.	10
21	231	And as I paused before each beauty in that chain and met her eyes and heard her words, "Buy Me, Master," I asked myself why I should not buy her, why I should not free her instead of the other girl.	10
21	243	As I looked at her I asked myself why she, and why not another, or why any? What would it matter if her thigh, too, should wear that graceful brand? I supposed it was mostly the institution of slavery I objected to, and that that institution was not altered if I should, as an act of foolish sentimen...	10
21	245	Yes, I told myself, it was foolish.	10
21	261	I smiled ruefully to myself.	10
22	22	"Give me your sword, Warrior," said she, "and I will throw myself upon it".	10
22	196	I smiled to myself.	10
23	15	I smiled to myself.	10
23	149	Even in his youth he had the blind loyalty of the warrior, a loyalty which I respected and which was perhaps no more blind than some I myself had felt.	10
23	228	Thus borne aloft, from street to street, in the midst of joyous shouting, weapons raised on all sides in salute, my ears ringing with the plowing song, once a song of the freeholds of Tharna, long since supplanted by the Great Farms, I found myself brought to that fateful Kal-da shop I remembered so...	10
24	49	I laughed to myself.	10
24	241	The door was loose and I kicked it open, covering myself with the shield.	10
24	248	This time the trap did not open and I found myself in a narrow unlit hallway opposite the door to the palace.	10
25	8	Only an instant after myself Thorn's shield too was flung to the stones of the chamber floor.	10
25	70	Its ratlike scamper was incomprehensibly swift and almost before I could set myself for its charge it had crossed the cylinder roof in two or three bounds and pounced to seize me in its bared fangs.	10
25	79	I tried to turn the animal as well as I could to keep its scrambling body between myself and the man with wrist straps.	10
25	151	I smiled to myself, reasoning that she would have little opportunity for such matters.	10
25	161	Indeed, I myself had business to attend to—an account to settle—only my affairs would lead me to the Sardar Mountains, for the business to which I must attend was with the Priest-Kings of Gor.	10
26	9	They have taken from me my father and the girl I love, and my friends, and have given me suffering and hardship, and peril, and yet I feel that in some strange way in spite of myself I have served them—that it was their will that I came to Tharna.	10
26	28	I myself had stood at the foot of the steps to the golden throne when Lara had commanded that the giant mask of gold which hung behind it be pried by spears from the wall and cast to the floor at our feet.	10
26	54	Lara had thought long on these matters and had discussed them with many, including myself.	10
26	83	She, like myself, and all of Ko-ro-ba, is an exile, and exiles sometimes find it hard to call a foreign city home; sometimes they regard the risks of the wilderness as preferable to the shelter of alien walls.	10
26	91	"And should I ever again be tempted to be proud or cruel," she said, a smile in her voice, "I shall merely remind myself that I was once sold for fifty silver tarn disks—and that a warrior once purchased me for only a scabbard and a helmet".	10

Book 3. (146 results) Priest-Kings of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
27	24	I found myself hoping that she might not be too distressed by her captivity, and then I scorned myself this weakness and insisted to myself that I welcomed the thought that whatever miseries she endured would be richly deserved.	10
7	45	I found myself congratulating myself that I had been taken to the chamber of Vika, for I had thought her the most beautiful.	10
20	192	I smiled to myself, for I thought how incredible that I should find myself naturally and without a second thought considering going to the rescue of the worthless, vicious wench, Vika of Treve.	10
23	20	Yet I myself I knew would have preferred to see the assailant and so I found myself wishing that this brief, terrible privilege had been Vika of Treve's, for I remembered her as a woman of courage and pride.	10
30	115	I myself was pleased that it had taken a Priest-King to have me chained at Vika's feet, that it had not been I myself who, in the hope of her favors, had fastened about my own throat the collar of a slave.	10
30	183	Let her think over that, I said to myself, think over that—Vika of Treve—Pet Mul! I found myself wanting to take her body in my arms and shatter it to my breast, forcing back her head, taking her lips in the kiss of a master as though I once more owned her.	10
33	84	Perhaps the Priest-Kings are exhaling now, I thought to myself, but the High Initiate had had more practice in the interpretation of signs than myself.	10
34	195	Had I not lived these things, did I not know whereof I speak, I ask myself if I—Tarl Cabot himself—would accept them, and I tell myself frankly, in all likelihood, No.	10
1	50	I smiled to myself.	10
1	95	I myself had seen the power of Priest-Kings and knew that such beings existed.	10
1	96	I myself had traveled in a ship of the Priest-Kings which had twice carried me to this world; I had seen their power so subtly exercised as to alter the movements of a compass needle, so grossly demonstrated as to destroy a city, leaving behind not even the stones of what had once been a dwelling pl...	10
1	99	He had disobeyed and he had been destroyed, immediately and with grotesque dispatch, but the important thing was, I told myself, that he had disobeyed, that he could disobey, that he had been able to disobey and choose the ignominious death he knew must follow.	10
2	40	I looked behind myself in time to see the great gate close.	10
2	61	I wrapped my cloak more firmly about myself and using my spear as a staff I forced my way upward.	10
2	88	I smiled to myself.	10
2	116	I have never cared to have an enemy above me, nor did I now, but I told myself that my spear might more easily find a vulnerable spot if the larl leapt downwards toward me than if I were above and had only the base of its neck as my best target.	10
2	131	At last I came to the bend in the path and braced myself for the sudden bolt about that corner in which I must cry aloud to startle them and in the same instant cast my spear at the nearest larl and set upon the other with my drawn sword.	10
2	132	I hesitated for a moment and then the fierce war cry of Ko-ro-ba burst from my lips in the clear, chill air of the Sardar and I threw myself into the open, my spear arm back, my shield high.	10
3	23	Yes, I said to myself, it was well done.	10
3	31	Yes, I repeated grimly to myself, glaring at the larls, though smiling, it was well done, too well done.	10
3	34	The place in which I found myself was considerably wider than the path on which I had trod, for the path had given suddenly onto a fairly large circular area in which I had found the chained larls.	10
4	14	I found myself on the brink of entering what appeared to be a great and perfect dome, having a diameter I am sure of at least a thousand yards.	10
4	118	"Myself," he said, "I'm forced to admit I've never quite gotten used to that awful racket they make".	10
4	155	Then seized by an impulse I sat myself down on the great throne in the Hall of Priest-Kings, drew my sword and placed it across my knees.	10
5	80	I arose and walked through the portal and found myself in a long stone passageway beyond it which stretched as far as I could see in either direction.	10
5	157	I myself would not understand the intricate processes involved in the machine of which she spoke but the purpose of the machine and the theoretical principles that facilitated its purpose were reasonably clear.	10
5	251	I could understand that she, a proud, intelligent girl, could not but resent the indignities of her position, being forced to serve with the full offices of the slave girl whomsoever the Priest-Kings might see fit to send to her chamber, but yet I found in these grievances, great though they might b...	10
5	263	I whistled to myself.	10
6	30	Indeed, when I had returned to Earth from my first trip to Gor I had found that one of the minor inconveniences of my return was reaccustoming myself to the simple business of sitting on chairs.	10
6	77	I cursed myself for a fool.	10
7	35	Still wondering if she were of High Caste, and smiling to myself, I continued down the passageway.	10
7	59	* * * * After some hours I found myself again in the Hall of Priest-Kings.	10
7	78	When I came to a bend in the passageway I rounded it, and then pressed myself against the wall and waited.	10
7	99	I tensed myself for the leap and cry that would fling me into the open, the sudden interruption in the stillness of the passageway that might be sufficient to impair the steadiness of a spear arm, the calm setting of a crossbow's iron quarrel on its guide.	10
7	103	I had run for perhaps a half pasang when I stopped, panting and furious with myself.	10
8	136	So I thought to myself, I had placed her accent rather well, either Builders or Physicians, and had I thought carefully enough about it, I might have recognized her accent as being a bit too refined for the Builders.	10
8	137	I chuckled to myself.	10
9	109	"He tried to prevent me but I sought out the Initiates of Treve, proposing myself as an offering to the Priest-Kings.	10
9	213	I found myself tempted to break her head against the foot of the stone couch, for she was worthless, treacherous, seductive, cruel, vicious, worthy only of the collar, irons and the whip! She shook her head numbly as though denying charges I had not voiced.	10
9	260	Let her weep, I said to myself, for she has failed her masters, the Priest-Kings, and undoubtedly her punishment will not be light.	10
9	261	Had I the time, had I not more urgent business, I might have punished her myself, teaching her without mercy what could be the meaning of her collar, using her as objectively and ruthlessly as she deserved, brutally administering the discipline of a Gorean master to a treacherous slave girl.	10
10	58	I looked about me and found myself on a high, railed platform, overlooking a vast circular artificial canyon, lined with bridges and terraces.	10
10	88	I wondered to myself.	10
10	91	Yet I said to myself the Priest-Kings are intelligent and I found it difficult to believe there could exist an intelligent race without humor.	10
11	99	I would never find myself fully able to adjust to the incredible stillness with which a Priest-King can stand.	10
12	2	I found myself in some sort of plaza, surrounded by the fantastic architecture of the Nest of Priest-Kings.	10
13	49	I found myself nastily hoping that he was the one who had been synthesized.	10
13	96	Indeed, even I myself, after my experience of the arthropod on the platform and the flat, sluglike beast on its transportation disk in the plaza, was growing accustomed to finding strange creatures in the Nest of the Priest-Kings.	10
14	1	The Secret Chamber of Misk The arms of the metal device seized me and I found myself held helplessly by the arms suspended some feet above the floor.	10
14	9	For an instant I had considered scrambling out of their reach but then I had sensed that there would be no escape in the smooth, closed, carefully prepared room in which I found myself.	10
14	93	The bareness of Misk's chamber was, however, as it turned out, only an apparent bareness to a visually oriented organism such as myself.	10
14	116	I myself grew rather fond of Misk.	10
14	153	I puzzled to myself why Sarm might want Misk to be killed.	10
14	181	"I dug this chamber myself," he said, "and day by day over the lifetimes of many Muls I took a bit of rock dust away and scattered it here and there unobserved in the tunnels".	10
15	5	I had no mind to do this, but I did grasp the torch in my teeth with one end lit and, hand over hand, lower myself down the knotted rope.	10
15	8	A circle of eerie, blue, descending light flickered on the walls of the passage down which I lowered myself.	10
15	14	When I arrived at the bottom of the rope, some forty feet below, I held the torch over my head and found myself in a bare, simple chamber.	10
15	38	I gazed about myself with wonder.	10
15	50	"I had to design this equipment myself," said Misk, "and for that reason it is inexcusably primitive, but there was no possibility to apply for standard instrumentation in this case".	10
15	68	I myself know of no female egg in the Nest, and I know of only one which has occurred in the last six thousand years".	10
15	71	"I myself was hatched," said Misk, "before we brought our world into your solar system".	10
15	85	I myself am willing to die but the race of Priest-Kings must not die".	10
17	4	In fevered sleep it seemed I saw Sarm's great head with its powerful, laterally moving jaws hovering over me, that I heard the cry of larls and saw the burning pupils of Parp's eyes and his reaching toward me with instruments and a golden net, and I found myself chained to the foot of Vika's couch a...	10
18	1	I Speak with Sarm In the next days, when I could escape from the attentions of Sarm, on occasions when he was undoubtedly drawn elsewhere by his numerous duties and responsibilities, I searched the Nest by myself, on a transportation disk furnished by Sarm, looking for Misk, but I found no trace of...	10
18	37	"I am not sure I know how myself," I said.	10
18	63	I had been wondering if such a turn was possible with a transportation disk and I was rather pleased with myself that I had accomplished it.	10
18	64	The fact that I had nearly thrown myself and my two passengers off the disk at high speed onto the flooring of the tunnel did not occur to me at the time.	10
18	139	I looked about myself at the incredible complex which lay below me.	10
18	162	"There is Nest Trust between myself and Misk," I said.	10
19	19	I calculated the distance between myself and Sarm and wondered if I could reach him and kill him before he could bring his jaws into play, or those formidable blades on his forelegs.	10
19	55	"By the way," I asked, "how does one kill a Priest-King?" As I asked this I found myself unconsciously measuring my distance from Sarm.	10
19	106	I smiled to myself and left the chamber.	10
20	63	Her terrified eyes fell on Mul-Al-Ka, Mul-Ba-Ta and myself.	10
22	14	If I drew myself up on it I was afraid it would fall altogether.	10
22	21	The bar to which I now clung seemed relatively stable and with relief I drew myself up onto it, and then stepped carefully to the next.	10
22	58	"Frankly," said Misk, "it would be my recommendation to slay me first and then unlock the band and dispose of my body, for otherwise I might be tempted to defend myself".	10
22	78	I found myself pressed up tightly against his thorax.	10
23	15	How long Vika had been dead I had no way of judging, though I cursed myself for it would not have appeared to be a matter of more than a few hours.	10
23	19	I found myself almost hoping that she had not, for it would have been more than enough to have heard it following in the tunnels.	10
23	51	As I wandered through these passages my sorrow for Vika of Treve struggled with my hatred for the Golden Beetle until I forced myself to clear my head of emotion and concentrate on the task at hand.	10
23	54	How was it that she had been captured only so recently by the creature? And if it were true that she had been captured only recently how would she have managed to live in the caverns for those days? Perhaps she might have found a sump of water but what would there have been to eat, I wondered? Perha...	10
23	55	And how was it, I asked myself, that the Golden Beetle had not already feasted on the delicate flesh of the proud beauty of Treve? And I wondered on the five strange protuberances that nested so grotesquely in her lovely body.	10
24	60	But I myself had seen its body and knew now that it was incapable of prolonged, rapid movement.	10
24	61	How was it then, I asked myself, that such a slow, awkward, clumsy creature, no matter how formidable at close range, could capture and slay an organism as alert and swift as a Priest-King? I moved Vika's limbs and rubbed her hands to see if I could restore her circulation to a more normal level.	10
25	18	I smiled to myself, for I could always tell her, and truthfully, that having saved her life she was now mine by Gorean law, so brief had been her freedom, and that it was up to me to determine the extent and nature of her clothing, and, indeed, whether or not she would be allowed clothing at all.	10
25	29	I shook myself and resheathed my sword.	10
25	72	I shook myself and moved my limbs.	10
25	85	I had no wish to remain indefinitely in the passage, nor could I bring myself to abandon the girl.	10
26	20	For a moment I almost yielded, but I steeled myself against her trickery and continued my work.	10
26	210	I was forced to remind myself in no uncertain terms of the cleverness of this consummate actress, and how so many men had weakened to her insidious blandishments.	10
26	266	I smiled to myself as I thought of the small things on my old world that at such remoteness perhaps reenacted the ancient ceremony of the caves, the carrying of the bride over the threshold, perhaps as a prisoner, the tiny wedding bands, perhaps a small reminder of the primitive thongs that bound th...	10
26	267	Yes, I said to myself, the words Vika spoke were perhaps not as strange as I had thought.	10
26	294	Had I not known how vicious and deceitful she was, how cruel and treacherous, I might have permitted myself a word of kindness to her.	10
27	29	They, like myself, having disobeyed Sarm, were now outlaws in the Nest.	10
27	35	Had they not destroyed my city? Had they not scattered its people? Had they not destroyed men by Flame Death and brought them, willing or no, to their own world on the Voyages of Acquisition? Had they not implanted their control nets in human beings and spun the hideous mutations of the Gur Carriers...	10
27	54	Well, I said to myself, this is the right place.	10
27	62	I quickly retraced my steps to the ventilator shaft, pried open the bottom of the grille, squeezed inside and soon found myself making my way rapidly through the ventilating system in the direction of the Chamber of the Mother.	10
27	66	I followed these scents and soon found myself peering into an immense chamber.	10
27	115	You are dying, Priest-Kings, I said to myself.	10
27	161	I told myself that perhaps the stroke in the vicinity of the brain-nodes had been his undoing.	10
27	196	I almost had to smile in spite of myself for the unmoved, unemotional emissions of the translators seemed so much at odds with the visible agitation of the Priest-Kings and the dire import of their messages.	10
27	221	I told myself it would probably come for the head or throat, if only because these were, from his height, easier to reach and he would wish to kill me quickly and with little difficulty, for he would surely regard his main business as the slaying of Misk, who still lay, either dead or unconscious, b...	10
28	86	The case, I said to myself, has taught Vika of Treve much.	10
28	173	For example, at different times, returning from a raid, perhaps bringing another captured silver tube, no longer needed by one of Sarm's slain cohorts, I would find myself unremarked even by Misk though I might stand but feet from him.	10
28	202	Yes, I asked myself, what of the transportation disk? I looked at Misk.	10
28	233	It was manned by myself and Al-Ka and Ba-Ta.	10
29	62	The ceiling of the complex leapt away from above me and I found myself in the very center of the six ships, surrounded on the four sides, and above and below.	10
29	68	Two hypotheses would seem most likely to explain this phenomenon to them, first that I had fled the complex, second that I was nestled among them, and I smiled to myself, for I was certain that the second hypothesis would never occur to a Priest-King, for it was too improbable and Priest-Kings were ...	10
29	71	Again I smiled to myself.	10
29	75	The first ship to near the exit seemed to burst into a cloud of powder but the next four ships, and myself, who had fallen into line with them, pierced the veil of powder and found ourselves coursing through the tunnel back toward Sarm's domain.	10
29	134	I seized the sword which I had never ceased to wear and uttering the war cry of Ko-ro-ba rushed forward but as I did so I suddenly threw myself to the ground beneath those extended projections and slashed away at the Priest-King's posterior appendages.	10
29	162	I looked about myself, at the empty streets, the empty windows, the silence of the once bustling complex.	10
30	3	I opened my eyes to find myself looking into the twin fiery disks of the sinister-appearing, rotund Parp.	10
30	8	So it was he, I said to myself, who formed Al-Ka and Ba-Ta, he the biologist who was among the first in the Nest.	10
30	11	"I am Tarl Cabot of Ko-ro-ba," I said weakly, as though to assure myself of my own identity.	10
30	31	It seemed to me that under the circumstances, while I was still my own master, I should perhaps slay myself.	10
30	146	I looked about myself.	10
30	181	"For that," she said, "you will go hungry tonight!" I remembered, smiling to myself, how when I was master I had once, to discipline her, refused her food one night.	10
30	182	Now it was I who would go hungry, but I told myself, it was worth it.	10
31	3	Misk was to come alone to the plaza, to be met by myself and Sarm.	10
31	15	I myself was forced to walk perhaps a dozen paces in front of Sarm, who held his grasping appendage near the control box which would, he supposed, activate the golden net he believed to be fused into the tissues of my brain.	10
31	33	I tensed myself for the sudden burst of fire, that incandescent torrent that would burst and burn the flesh from my bones.	10
31	116	I myself would not know how to repair his damage so I went to the doors of the chamber, which were locked on the inside, and thrust up the latching mechanism.	10
31	137	Then suddenly he wheeled and saw me and seemed startled but then the silver tube flew up and I threw myself rolling back down the walkway, the steel stairs bubbling away following me.	10
31	140	Twice more Sarm fired and twice more I scrambled about on the walkway trying to keep the two surfaces of the globe between myself and his weapon.	10
32	28	Misk, carrying Sarm, and the other Priest-Kings and humans, including Vika and myself, made our way from the Power Plant and back toward the complex which had been the heart of Sarm's territory.	10
32	38	It was cold and the humans, including myself, shivered in the simple plastic we wore.	10
32	93	I smiled to myself, for Misk seemed now to busy himself with his cleaning hooks.	10
32	202	Then I found myself in the first Nest Complex, where first I had laid eyes on the Nest of Priest-Kings.	10
32	211	When the door opened I found myself once more in the Hall of Priest-Kings, though the great dome above it was now broken and portions of it had fallen to the floor of the hall.	10
33	2	It was a strange but rapid journey, and as we leaped chasms and seemed almost to swim in the cold air I told myself that Misk and his Priest-Kings and the humans that were engineers in the Nest were losing the battle that would decide whether men and Priest-Kings might, working together, save a worl...	10
33	17	It suddenly seemed to me that Vika was a bit heavier than she had been and I told myself that I must be tiring.	10
33	81	I smiled to myself.	10
33	124	And then with shame I realized how nearly I myself had come to betraying my fellow creatures.	10
33	125	I had intended to make use of that moment myself, pretending to have come with a message from Priest-Kings, to encourage man to live as I wished him to live, to respect himself and others, to be kind and to be worthy of the heritage of a rational animal, and yet of what worth would these things be i...	10
33	132	The High Initiate of Ar and myself regarded one another.	10
34	29	I smiled to myself.	10
34	64	I was puzzled, for I myself had looked upon the valley of Ko-ro-ba and had seen that the city had vanished.	10
34	113	"If I loved you only a little less," she said, "I would find Talena of Ar myself and thrust a dagger into her heart".	10
34	143	I told the Older Tarl and Torm to say good-bye to my father, as I did not trust myself to see him longer, for fear that I would not wish so soon to part from him again.	10
34	152	Yes, I said to myself, it is a possibility, but not a likely one.	10
34	176	"Of course," he added, "I might do the work myself".	10
35	13	There were gasps of astonishment and horror from all save myself.	10
35	107	"I cannot go myself," said Misk.	10
35	125	"Your affairs," I told him, but speaking to myself, "are your affairs—and not mine".	10
35	171	I smiled to myself.	10

Book 4. (55 results) Nomads of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
1	19	Even past me there thundered a lumbering herd of startled, short-trunked kailiauk, a stocky, awkward ruminant of the plains, tawny, wild, heavy, their haunches marked in red and brown bars, their wide heads bristling with a trident of horns; they had not stood and formed their circle, shes and young...	10
3	2	I might have thrown myself to the ground as the larl hunters from Ar, once their weapon is cast, covering myself with the shield; but then I would have been beneath the clawed paws of four squealing, snorting kaiila, while the riders jabbed at me with lances, off my feet, helpless.	10
7	209	And finally, I reminded myself again, was I not now engaged in their work? Was I not now attempting to be of service to them? Was I not now among the Wagon Peoples, in peril perhaps, on their behalf? But, I asked myself, if this message was not from Priest-Kings, from whom could it be? Who would dar...	10
10	125	Kamchak! Free a slave! And, I told myself, even if I myself owned Elizabeth, and not Kamchak, I could not free her—for what would it be to free her? If she approached Turia she would fall slave to the first patrol that leashed and hooded her; if she tried to stay among the wagons, some young ...	10
21	84	By that time I had rounded a corner and leaped to a window, pulled myself up to the next window, and hauled myself up again and onto the flat roof of a shop.	10
2	1	I Make the Acquaintance of the Wagon Peoples As I walked I asked myself why I did so—why I, Tarl Cabot—once of Earth, later a warrior of the Gorean city of Ko-ro-ba, the Towers of the Morning, had come here.	10
2	2	In the long years that had passed since first I had come to the Counter-Earth I had seen many things, and had known loves, and had found adventures and perils and wonders, but I asked myself if anything I had done was as unreasoning, as foolish as this, as strange.	10
2	17	And if I should find the object—why should I not myself destroy it, and destroy thereby the race of Priest-Kings, giving this world to my own kind, to men, to do with as they pleased, unrestricted by the laws and decrees of Priest-Kings that so limited their development, their technology? Onc...	10
2	30	There is no loss of honor in failing to achieve such a task, I told myself.	10
2	117	Kataii, I said to myself.	10
2	160	Were they of Earth stock, I asked myself.	10
3	3	So gambling all on the respect of the Wagon Peoples for the courage of men, I made no move to defend myself but, heart pounding, blood racing, yet no sign visible of agitation on my face, without a quiver of a muscle or tendon betraying me, I stood calmly erect.	10
3	21	More importantly, I did not wish to introduce myself to these people as an enemy.	10
3	31	I did not wish to present myself to them as an enemy.	10
4	11	Then the animal seized my shield in its teeth and reared lifting it and myself, by the shield straps, from the ground.	10
4	13	I shook myself.	10
4	47	He wants a kill, I told myself.	10
4	52	To the head came the flashing bola moving in its hideous, swift revolution almost invisible in the air and I, instead of lowering my head or throwing myself to the ground, met instead the flying weighted leather with the blade of a Koroban short sword, with the edge that would divide silk dropped up...	10
5	102	"I myself," he said, "must often go to the wagon of the Ubar".	10
6	186	"I myself," I said, "have never seen such a collar".	10
7	208	Besides this, as far as I knew, Misk, who was my friend and between whom and myself there was Nest Trust, was still the highest born of the living Priest-Kings and the final authority in matters of importance in the Nest; I knew that Misk, if no other, would not have wished my death.	10
8	159	Kamchak made her walk back and forth once or twice, and spoke to her rather sharply about her posture, then, to the surprise of both Miss Cardwell and myself, he did not chain her, but told her she might walk about the camp unattended, warning her only to return before dusk and the release of the he...	10
8	181	He was Albrecht of the Kassars, and, with Conrad of the Kassars, had been riding against myself and Kamchak.	10
8	222	As the day grew late points were accumulated, but, to the zest and frenzy of the crowd, the lead in these contests of arms shifted back and forth, first being held by Kamchak and myself, then by Conrad and Albrecht.	10
8	223	In the crowd, on the back of a kaiila, I noted the girl Hereena, of the First Wagon, whom I had seen my first day in the camp of the Tuchuks, she who had almost ridden down Kamchak and myself between the wagons.	10
8	294	Tuchuk girls, Elizabeth and Tuka, would run for the Kassars; the two Kassar girls would run for Kamchak and myself; naturally each slave does her best for her master, attempting to evade his competitor.	10
8	387	I knew myself that twenty-five was a remarkable time.	10
8	610	It was with a kind of shock that I suddenly realized that she, and Dina of Turia, now belonged to Kamchak and myself.	10
8	611	The two girls, while Elizabeth Cardwell looked on angrily, knelt before Kamchak and myself, lowering their heads, lifting and extending their arms, wrists crossed.	10
9	61	I would still, I told myself, settle for a piece of bosk meat.	10
9	66	I had not made use of this particular tool, and had contented myself with merely taking a bite or two, to satisfy the requirements of etiquette, from each course.	10
9	125	I did think, however, that it was somewhat unusual that they should appear in public unveiled, particularly with Kamchak and myself present.	10
9	149	Then, later in the evening, when I was drunker on paga than I should have permitted myself to become, I heard them discuss details which could only have pertained to what Kamchak had called the games of Love War, details having to do with specifications of time, weapons and judges, and such.	10
9	177	I could sense that she had almost immediately seen myself and Kamchak, strangers at the tables.	10
9	399	"Give it to me!" "Very well," said Kamchak, "but I must ask to place it on you myself".	10
9	462	Yes, I said to myself, wily Tuchuk.	10
10	1	Love War It was early in the morning, several days after Saphrar's banquet, that Kamchak and myself, among some hundreds of others of the Four Wagon Peoples, came to the Plains of a Thousand Stakes, some pasangs distant from lofty Turia.	10
10	126	And I myself did not intend to stay among the wagons.	10
10	193	I was forced to remind myself that between these two lines of stakes men would soon fight and die.	10
10	310	I smiled to myself, wondering if Aphris of Turia, standing so loftily at the first stake, wore beneath the robes of white and gold the camisk of a slave girl.	10
11	330	"I will kill myself first," cried Aphris, posing the quiva over her heart.	10
12	11	It was possible, of course, that I might declare my mission to Kutaituchik or Kamchak, and see what would occur—but I knew that Kamchak had said to Saphrar of Turia that the Tuchuks were fond of the golden sphere—and I had no hopes that I might make them part with it—and surely ...	10
12	29	But, I reminded myself, such a choice, if choice there must be, might be best for the cities of Gor, for under Kutaituchik the Wagons would not be likely to move northward, nor even to the gates of Turia.	10
12	30	But, I then reminded myself even more strongly, there would be no choice—there had been no Ubar San for a hundred years or more—the Wagon Peoples, fierce and independent, did not wish a Ubar San.	10
12	251	I smiled rather grimly to myself and took a significant swallow of paga.	10
12	252	"Wily Tuchuk, eh?" I thought to myself.	10
12	337	"I'd give her away myself," said Aphris.	10
12	361	I myself doubted that this would be feasible, particularly in her condition.	10
12	377	Oh, yes, I said to myself, a good price, and ho, ho, ho.	10
12	433	At the exit he stopped briefly and, Aphris over his shoulder, turned and faced Elizabeth and myself.	10
12	479	The little secretary, I thought to myself, so far from her pencils, the typewriter, the desk calendars and steno pads—so far from her world—so helpless, so much at Kamchak's mercy and this night, should I choose, at mine.	10
12	499	I might, of course, if I could find the money, buy her myself and attempt to find her a kind master.	10
15	28	I suppose I was angered because I myself was a tarnsman, and it seemed somehow improper for warriors astride the mighty tarns to barter their favors indiscriminately for gold to either side.	10
15	40	* * * * I knew that I myself must somehow enter Turia, for in Turia now lay the golden sphere.	10
15	42	Was it not for this purpose that I had come to the Wagon Peoples? I cursed the fact that I had waited so long—even to the time of the Omen Taking—for thereby had I lost the opportunity to try for the sphere myself in the wagon of Kutaituchik.	10

Book 5. (2 results) Assassin of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
4	65	I myself felt bitterly about a poorly lit bridge in the vicinity of the Cylinder of Warriors—and about a certain hour on a certain day—for it was on that bridge that a young man, of the Warriors, had walked perhaps not more than a quarter of an Ahn before I myself would have passed tha...	10
19	171	I myself, in spite of my predicament, found myself being awestruck, again and again, by the beauty, the performances, the dances of the girls who were, lot by lot, brought before us; how beautiful are women, how fantastic, how tormenting, how superb, how marvelous, how excruciatingly maddening, and ...	10

Book 6. (5 results) Raiders of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
4	229	Then on an island of rence in the delta of the Vosk I had learned myself, that I was, in the core of myself, ignoble and craven, worthless and fearing, only coward.	10
8	334	More than this, they had been my teachers, who had brought me to cruelly learn myself as I had no wish to know myself.	10
8	535	And I now saw myself a fool for having espoused codes, for having set above myself ideals.	10
17	144	I asked myself who I was, and I told myself, I did not know.	10
18	55	And yet, I asked myself, had they lived, would they not have sung? And I told myself, I thought yes.	10

Book 7. (9 results) Captive of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
7	426	Surely I am not beginning to find myself responsive to these handsome, virile, dominating, masterful brutes! And surely not when I am naught but a meaningless slave! No, I told myself, never, no, no, no! But I had already begun to sense, fearing the comprehension, how the slave girl sees men, how sh...	10
10	353	I had then, on some level, felt myself a slave, known myself a slave.	10
10	355	I felt myself then a slave, knew myself a slave, but one who had not yet met her master.	10
11	1013	But what most I now feared, and most hysterically rejected, was the suspicion that there might lurk in my deepest being a profound turning, a sudden, cataclysmic transformation of my consciousness, the possibility that I might admit to myself, confess to myself, a truth I dared not even articulate.	10
11	1014	This was the suspicion that I might not only accept the fittingness of slavery for one such as myself, for I had now come to recognize myself as a slave, but that I might come to find my fulfillment in it, that I would rejoice in it, and would come to love it.	10
11	1018	I feared, and yet desired, to find myself kneeling before a man at whose feet I would have no choice but to admit to myself not only what I was, but what I wanted to be.	10
14	142	What if they should finish their sport, and turn to look upon me, and command me to serve them? Would I not, as a woman, have to give them immediate response? Could I have helped myself, kept myself from yielding immediately and completely to them? When such men command, what could a woman do? "Ho!"...	10
14	314	"Yes!" I found myself hoping, though I did not admit the thought to myself, that my brand might be as attractive on my body.	10
15	1143	Then I said to myself, of course one wants to be attractive to men! I hate them, but I wish to be attractive to them, that I may annoy them, disturb them, trouble them, torment them, bring them to excruciatingly desire, which I may then leave unfulfilled, rouse them to a madness of passion which I t...	10

Book 8. (1 results) Hunters of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
6	966	I struggled with myself for several Ahn, fighting myself.	10

Book 10. (3 results) Tribesmen of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
21	503	One thing the Kur would not expect would be that I would surrender the shield of invisibility; one thing he would not expect would be that it would be I, myself, who would present myself to his weapon.	10
24	1	I Bind a Girl, Reserving Her for Myself; I Then Address Myself to the Duties of Steel The outcome of the battle, some twenty pasangs from the kasbah of the Salt Ubar, had never been in doubt.	10
26	878	"'—herewith submit myself, completely and totally, in all things—'" "—herewith submit myself, completely and totally, in all things—" she said.	10

Book 11. (11 results) Slave Girl of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
2	957	I realized, though scarce would admit it to myself, that I was displaying myself as a female before him.	10
3	83	If this were so why then did I feel so small and slight among the Gorean men, and tremble when they put their hands upon me? Among the men of Earth, thoughtful, and cute and kind, I had not felt small and slight, nor did I tremble when they put their hands upon me; I had felt only irritation, and wo...	10
3	600	I knew now I was a Kajira; I knew that I had, too, following Eta's example, acknowledged myself as such to my captor; I had proclaimed myself a Kajira, whatever it might be, before him.	10
4	835	At times I had been on the brink of surrendering myself to myself, acknowledging to my horrified conscious mind forbidden truths, long-denied realities, speaking of a venerable, long-suppressed, antique nature, one antedating huts of straw and limestone caves.	10
4	871	How ashamed I was! I asked myself what could it mean? Could the feelings which had overwhelmed me be denied? Could the sensate truth, the splendor of biological submission, so different from the truth of a man, which is that of domination, in whose glory I had been wrapped, be denied? I resolved tha...	10
4	1180	I wanted to give all of myself, wholeheartedly, to deliver and bestow myself unto them as their girl, who loved them and would do all for them, asking nothing.	10
5	100	I now, artlessly, unable to help myself, found myself thinking naturally of Gorean as the language of masters.	10
7	1013	I recalled his anger at my helpless yielding to the soldier; I was only a slave; I had not been able to help myself; yet he had been angry; too, he himself had commanded the man to address himself to the work of my rape; yet he had been angry; too, his concern with Marla seemed to me rather sudden a...	10
7	1348	"I must yield, Master! I cannot help myself! I cannot help myself but yield to you!" "Must you yield," he asked, "even though it might mean your death?" "Yes, Master!" I cried.	10
13	375	Without warning I had been forced to reveal myself, despite any pretenses or intentions I might have, as what I had become on Gor, a true slave girl, and reveal myself as such openly, inadvertently, spontaneously, incontrovertibly, helplessly.	10
20	444	I remembered myself miserable in his arms, writhing with unwanted ecstasy, then, unable to help myself, unable to hold out longer, suddenly surrendering to my enslavement in his arms.	10

Book 12. (1 results) Beasts of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
4	692	I remembered the coolness of his subterfuge at the back of the booth, waiting beside the rent canvas for me to thrust through it, thus locating myself and exposing myself for the thrust of the knife.	10

Book 13. (3 results) Explorers of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
11	145	In a few moments I had hoisted myself up to the low roof and then, again, climbing, I eased myself onto the roof of the building in which the man and woman had been conversing.	10
48	239	"I declare myself a slave, naught but that, and rightfully so," said the blonde, "and I submit myself to you, begging that you will keep me, and be my master".	10
48	241	"I declare myself a slave, naught but that, and rightfully so," said the dark-haired girl, and then she turned to face Turgus, "and I submit myself to you, begging that you will keep me, and be my master".	10

Book 14. (2 results) Fighting Slave of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
7	230	Was I not of Earth? Was I not a true man, capable of conquering myself? Why, I wondered, should I conquer myself? Why should I not allow myself to be victorious? Then, again, chagrined, embarrassed, I thrust such thoughts from my mind.	10
7	249	It hinted too clearly at my dominance over her by nature, a dominance which I knew I must not permit myself to exercise, indeed, a dominance which I, of Earth, was not even supposed to permit myself to recognize.	10

Book 15. (1 results) Rogue of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
24	363	How bold she was! I myself would not have dared to admit such a thing to another woman! What might she think of me? I had not even, scarcely, dared to admit to myself, or recall, that in the arms of the fifth man my body had clasped his, and my arms, and I had, in the darkness of the hood, a moaning...	10

Book 16. (2 results) Guardsman of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
20	1279	I had long fantasized stripping myself before you, and offering myself to you as your slave".	10
21	817	"In any event," she said, "I dared to do what I did, make myself up so, dress myself so, and speak to you as I did".	10

Book 17. (1 results) Savages of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
1	615	I myself, whereas I had served Priest-Kings, did not regard myself as being of their party.	10

Book 18. (2 results) Blood Brothers of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
29	98	He had, on the other hand, invited me to content myself, and please myself, and relieve myself, with them as I would, expecting little of me in return other than that I would handle them as what they were, slaves, and prepare them, to some extent, for they were new slaves, for various of their futur...	10
40	663	"A few moments ago," she said, "I for the first time confessed myself to myself a slave, a confession which I now acknowledge and make public.	10

Book 19. (11 results) Kajira of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
36	1410	Then I felt myself drawn to his lips, and I was drawn half into the chair, and then he, holding my head, not releasing it, turned, and I felt myself moved backwards and to the side, to my knees, before the chair, and then he was crouching before me, and then I felt myself being lowered backwards to ...	10
4	169	At his least word I would have stripped myself in the silken palanquin and presented myself publicly to him for his pleasures.	10
6	454	I stripped myself and threw myself on the great couch.	10
6	614	But why, I asked myself, irritatedly, should a civilization be congenial to nature? Is it not far better, I asked myself, for a civilization to contradict and frustrate nature; is it not far better for it to deny and subvert nature; is it not far better for it to blur natural distinctions and confus...	10
19	256	Why, then, I asked myself, was I hopeful that I had been pleasing to him, why did I find myself, undeniably, wanting to be pleasing to him? He was even going to shear me in the morning.	10
28	84	In short, I put myself through slave paces before him, presenting myself as a total female for his interest and consideration.	10
29	294	Conquered and taught, informed and grateful, I lay there; I found myself rejoicing in my femininity; I found myself treasuring my womanhood; how glad, how very glad I was, that I was a woman.	10
36	116	The last time, unable to help myself, I had cried out, surrendering myself totally to him.	10
36	583	I berated myself for my stupidity! I castigated myself for my madness! But I could not drive you from my mind! Ever more hotly burned the flames of my passion! And you are not even free!" "No," I said, suddenly, angrily.	10
36	748	And how marvelous it was for me, too, to know myself so much his, to know myself, will-lessly, eagerly, at his pleasure.	10
36	1381	How then could I admit to myself that I, a warrior of Ar, might have certain feelings towards one such as you, only a slave? Too, that I discerned your pettiness, your cruelty and shallowness, dissuaded me from honestly admitting my feelings to myself.	10

Book 20. (1 results) Players of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
6	265	"If I lift my skirt it seems I must reveal my modesty to a stranger," she wailed to the audience, "whereas should I lower it I must then, it seems, face-strip myself before him as brazenly as might a hussy! Oh, what is a poor girl to do?" "I myself, putatively lovely lady, have in my pack the answer...	10

Book 21. (1 results) Mercenaries of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
26	311	With the sword and quiva, protecting myself first with one and then the other, and probing about, using them alternately, and generally keeping away from the source of the sound, I determined to my satisfaction that the alcove was empty save for myself and the source of the sound.	10

Book 22. (14 results) Dancer of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
6	539	Doubtless there were men here, too, if not as on Earth, men who might be fretful, petty and weak, men the very sight and smell of which I might find offensive, men whose appearance and least touch I might find literally sickening, men I might find unutterably disgusting, men who were unclean, who we...	10
9	494	I must not allow myself to feel! But what, I asked myself, if I were not allowed to be my own mistress? What if men simply did things to me, forcing me to feel, as it pleased them, forcing me to yield, and melt, against my will, forcing me to feel, and experience, things which on Earth I had never e...	10
1	20	Then, not looking back to the mirror, I crept in the candlelight and shadows to the dresser and there, from beneath several layers of garments, where I had concealed it, I drew forth a small bit of scarlet cloth, tiny and silken, with shoulder straps, a garment I had myself sewn weeks ago, one in wh...	10
1	81	I drew it at the hem down more against my body, perhaps defensively, that I might feel it on me the more, that I might assure myself, I told myself, the more of its presence, that I was truly garmented, but this, too, of course, merely confirmed upon me not uncertainly the insidious disturbing subtl...	10
3	222	It was here, in this place, over there to my left, where I had found myself kneeling before a man, where I had found myself saying aloud, "I am a slave".	10
4	266	I had not had an opportunity to prepare myself for the touch, to perhaps steel myself into inertness.	10
6	50	Indeed, I wanted, myself, to rid myself of its narrownesses, its contaminations, its uglinesses, as quickly as I could.	10
6	511	I did not want men who were like me, I wanted men who were like men, men in whose arms, ravished, loving, crying out, overwhelmed, mastered, I could be myself, and find myself.	10
6	546	In reconciling myself to bondage I had, also, to reconcile myself to this condition.	10
7	70	I was sure that I, if I had set my mind to it, could have pleased a man, and myself, as well as she! To be sure, I reassured myself, quickly, assuaging a shred of the dignity of the frigid Earth female, still left in me at the time, I would have had no choice in the matter.	10
8	218	He well knew how to keep us in our place, did he not? And what a rich joke, I had thought, this was doubtless supposed to be, that I would find myself here, his "modern woman," in a place where really, more appropriately, and usually, not women, but tarsks, were sold! It was this place, I had surmis...	10
14	160	"Thus I must decide whether I will deny, and futilely fight, my slavery, dividing myself, and making myself miserable, or acknowledge what is in my secret heart, confessing it openly, and yielding to it, wholly, and irreservedly, then finding my happiness and fulfillment in it".	10
17	240	Sometimes in my dance I made use of the chain, sometimes pretending, to the music, to fight it, a fight which I had to lose, or not to understand it, looking to the men then, as though they might explain its meaning to me; they did, with raucous cries; sometimes I used it to caress me, with the soft...	10
19	23	"Better death in the streets, or a collar, than that I should so demean myself, and my station, as to avail myself of your generosity".	10

Book 24. (2 results) Vagabonds of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
15	21	As for myself I could concern myself with little but the weight of the raft, my footing, and the blows which drove me.	10
19	937	"Guard me! Protect me! Defend me! I cannot protect myself! I cannot defend myself! I am a female.	10

Book 25. (6 results) Magicians of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
3	819	But then I steeled myself against softness, and reminded myself that this was no time to acquire a bond maid, even one with a lovely little figure and pretty thighs, one who was now clearly ready to obey instantly, and with perfection.	10
14	568	It is only today that I ceased to lie to myself, that I ceased to be at war with myself.	10
14	637	"What if he insists on keeping me, as he is, and as I now am? What if he will keep me only according to his own rules, and lights, and keep me from myself, denying me to myself, frustrating my deepest and most profound needs, as I am?" "Then," said I, angrily, "that is how it will be, for it is you ...	10
19	1026	Rather I castigated myself for my timidity, and reminded myself, again and again, that it was I who was the free person, I who was in control, I who was in command, I who could have my way, as I pleased.	10
22	132	In virtue of it, I thought I might be able to defend Lavinia, if necessary, without calling too much attention to myself, in particular, without identifying myself as her likely master.	10
23	405	Let me recall myself to myself.	10

Book 26. (9 results) Witness of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
8	206	No longer was I isolated, or wandering alone, apart from myself, not knowing myself, lost from myself.	10
37	896	I had now found myself, and accepted myself, and loved myself! I was not a man, or a kind of man.	10
10	70	Instantly I drew the tunic over my head, stripping myself before him, and turned about, and put myself to my belly, legs and arms spread widely, spread-eagled.	10
11	921	Could I help it if my body was so alive, and so much at their mercy? Too, had they not done much, the men of this world, to bring me to this helplessness? They had not permitted me to hide from myself! They had forced me to be myself! —slave.	10
11	1592	I do not think that this was particularly because I realized that the means at my disposal to improve my life and condition here were largely limited to my beauty, heat, and service, but, rather, simply, because, under the eyes of a man, such a man as one of these, I could not help myself but behave...	10
13	947	Surely I must reproach myself, but I could not bring myself to do so.	10
16	181	I did want to display myself, and present myself, well before him.	10
44	111	Could I help myself? And had I not been enslaved? And had my needs not been ignited and enflamed by men? Had they not detected and revealed my most profound erotic secrets? Had they not released me from myself? Had they not, indeed, forced me, with whip and chain, to become my true self, the needful...	10
46	109	"I am a slave inwardly, in my need, and in my love, and in my nature! It is what I am! Despise me for it, if you wish! I am a natural slave, a rightful slave, and here, on this world, in my collar, I have found myself at last! Hate me! Hold me in contempt! But I am a slave, and I love being a slave!...	10

Book 27. (9 results) Prize of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
15	697	You have given me to myself, in a world where I can be myself, and need not hide myself, even from myself.	10
1	14	Perhaps I could speak more straightforwardly, more candidly, if I saw myself as another might see me, and yet, at the same time, saw myself, as well, from within, candidly, openly, hiding nothing, as one within, as I myself, might know me.	10
1	22	So I thought that I might begin, at least, by speaking in the third person, by considering myself, by seeing myself, from within and without, rather as an object, a particular object.	10
17	642	"You can see that I am chained! You can see that I am helpless! You can see that I cannot protect myself, or defend myself! You see that I cannot, in any way, prevent you from doing whatever you wish with me.	10
17	865	I would that I could give myself to you! But you do not want me! You have taught me to myself, and have then cast me aside, unwanted.	10
17	1210	It is they who will decide whether or not I will be given a sip of water, a bit of straw on which to sleep, a blanket to clutch about myself against the cold, a soiled rag with which to cover myself, if even they see fit to permit me clothing.	10
24	613	You have made me like this! Oh, I was always a slave, yes, doubtless, but it was you who forced me to reveal it! You, then, it was who forced me to acknowledge myself, who forced me to show myself as what I truly am! Surely a woman is entitled to this privacy! Surely she is entitled to conceal this ...	10
24	778	I tried to imitate them! I tried to do well! Then I felt myself taken by the music, and I could not help myself.	10
30	804	I have been the most free of the free, or thought myself such, and am now amongst the most enslaved of the enslaved, and am yet, because of that, the most free of the free, the truly free, for I am no longer at war with myself.	10

Book 28. (2 results) Kur of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
1	1360	Why does he not make me his slave? But I fear that I am not worthy to be his slave! But clearly he desires me! I think he would not mind having me at his feet! Then why might he not make me his slave? Where is Earth? Where is my old world! Where is the world where I understand myself? What is this p...	10
79	540	I want you for myself alone, but I would rather share you with a hundred slaves more beautiful than myself, if I am beautiful, than be apart from you".	10

Book 29. (1 results) Swordsmen of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
10	379	To abet this project it was meet that I disguise myself, which I did, adopting the guise of a Gorean slave girl, even to allowing myself to be seen in the insulting, disgusting garmenture of such sleek, meaningless, lascivious, groveling little beasts.	10

Book 30. (2 results) Mariners of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
14	253	I forced myself down again and, as I could, circled back, and, after twice emerging amongst the vines, came to some open water, and felt wood, and drew myself, panting, wiping my eyes, onto the two fastened beams which had borne, in turn, Durbar, and Seremides, and now bore me.	10
37	498	Perhaps I wanted them, and longed for them! Is that possible? I change! I have changed! Such acts change me! No wonder they are forbidden to free women! How they make us slaves! How right they seem! So right, so right! Inwardly I am different! How can one do such things, and live so, without becomin...	10

Book 31. (9 results) Conspirators of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
7	43	It was at such times, that I found it difficult, despite my upbringing, my education, and background, to see myself, and feel myself, as I had learned I should see myself, and feel myself.	10
8	410	What right had I, I asked myself, to arrogate to myself the prerogatives and prides of the free woman? And the slave, I reminded myself, does not belong to herself.	10
7	274	"Yes, Mistress," I said, and then addressed myself diligently to those tasks to which I had hitherto regarded myself as superior.	10
7	351	Did not I, and my acquaintances, laud our superiority to such things, in effect competing with one another in our alleged frigidities? To be sure, at least from high school on, I was alarmed at intrusive thoughts, thoughts so unlike me, so improper for me, which I tried to dismiss, and, too, by inco...	10
8	1418	When I tried to call myself to his attention, placing myself before him, making inquiries, simply to be near him, and such, this was noticed by the other girls, and I paid for my forwardness when we were alone.	10
17	228	I had told him so much, and revealed so much of myself, baring myself, my past, my thoughts, my hopes, fears, and feelings before him, as only a slave might bare herself before a master, and then, when I was so open, so confessed, so exposed, so vulnerable, so helplessly exhibited, he had informed m...	10
17	271	How could I help myself? I was a slave! I feared that, in a moment, I might, to the amusement of those about, press myself piteously against him.	10
17	433	I heard movements about me! I sensed the agitation, the diverse partisanships abounding about, the excitement of the crowd, heard the cries, the cheering, the stamping, the screams and shouts, and I could see nothing! It does not matter I said to myself, reassuring myself of my lack of interest in s...	10
27	54	I myself had never sold for so much but I suspected that I might now, myself, sell for as much.	10

Book 32. (17 results) Smugglers of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
39	144	I must not be myself, but another self, an external, dissatisfying, foreign self demanded of me! How I struggled to fulfill stereotypes alien to my deepest heart, to accept values which were not my own, to comply with rules and commands which would deny me to myself! Then I had found myself lying on...	10
52	475	I had been shaken with the very sight of him long ago, in the great emporium, when I, who had so frequently fantasized myself a slave, and had profoundly sensed I was a slave, and I belonged in the collar, had found myself, for the first time in my life, to my trepidation and consternation, looked u...	10
5	2	I felt myself small and helpless, and what I was, female, radically and only female, weakly female, helplessly female, and I knew myself incomparably less than he.	10
5	11	I felt myself looked upon not simply as a female, even one small, weak, and helpless, but as what I had so often thought myself to be, beyond that, a slave.	10
7	39	I often thought of the man whom I had first seen in the store, before whom, for the first time, I had felt myself viewed as what I had secretly taken myself to be, a slave.	10
11	17	What slave has not scrubbed floors, naked, in shackles? How weary I was, in my place, carrying my burden! Surely it was not for this that I had been taught in the house to cook, clean, launder, and sew, to tie a tunic, to move with grace, to speak as a slave, to kneel, belly, lick, and kiss, to eat ...	10
11	165	Had that gaze not, as though mighty hands, parted and torn away my clothing, revealing, as though for a master's consideration, what had impermissibly dared to conceal itself within? I had sensed myself more than regarded; I had sensed myself considered, appraised.	10
11	184	I must never let myself suffer so, must never permit myself to become no more than the negligible, pleading toy of an imperious brute.	10
15	42	Sometimes, if only lfom a chagrin at my lowliness, or perhaps in an attempt to recover something of my former free woman's independence and pride, I had resolved to resist the attentions to which I found myself subjected, but I had soon found myself succumbing as might any other collar slut, which I...	10
17	22	How it betrayed me with its health and need, with its eagerness, its responsiveness, its helplessness, and vitality! I must be at war with it! How could I be myself in a collar? And how could I be myself other than in a collar! In my heart I knew I belonged in the collar, but I was determined to den...	10
20	82	How I feared what they said was true! How I feared I might be a slave! And surely I had understood myself as, and accepted myself as, a slave, a rightful slave, even on Earth.	10
25	36	Was I truly free, I asked myself? Then I thought to myself, no, Margaret, Laura, you are not free, but a slave.	10
27	57	Though I was weary, and hungry, so hungry that I was almost faint with hunger, I forced myself to go further, and further, to put every tenth of a pasang I could between myself and the kennels and chains of Shipcamp, and the great, fearful, mysterious ship restless at its cables, the purpose of whic...	10
33	141	I had been in that position, tied helplessly, when a foot had turned me over, to my back, and I had seen him, the man by whom I had known myself, for the first time, looked upon as what I had always suspected myself to be, a slave.	10
41	33	I had come home to myself, and could not again leave myself, even if I had wished to do so, but I did not have that wish.	10
46	28	Could it be I was somehow his, I asked myself, that I belonged to him as an object to its owner, as a slave to her master? Had I not sensed such things before, of this callous, uncompromising, dominant brute, many times? Could I return, somehow, retrace my steps, seek him out, put myself to his feet...	10
52	611	But why, I asked myself, should I be embarrassed by, or shamed by, or disconcerted by, signs of, and the obvious consequences of, health, life, hormonal richness, and vitality? Had not nature made me so, designed me to be a yielded, surrendered slave in the arms of masters? And in the collar, and in...	10

Book 33. (2 results) Rebels of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
19	219	Once I had lost my honor in that container, and become a ruination to myself, I am supposing the Priest-Kings would have executed me, or, if satisfied, merely returned me to some wilderness on Gor, where I might eke out a lonely, shabby existence, lost to myself, friendless, excluded, despised, impo...	10
21	204	"But soon," she said, "by pathetic whimpers, and tiny movements of my body, which men cannot withstand, I made known that I now acknowledged myself a helpless woman in their grasp, admitting myself their helpless prisoner, and that I desired to speak".	10

Book 34. (7 results) Plunder of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
1	240	Was I afraid I would find myself in such books, in such a world, that I would find myself somehow therein? Did I fear I might learn something which, in some sense, I feared I already knew? "You have never heard of Gor?" he asked.	10
1	399	I had assured myself, if not convinced myself, again and again, that the two incidents just recounted, however disturbing, were unrelated and negligible.	10
7	401	How horrifying if I might find myself a yielding, begging slave in the arms of her master! How could I think of myself then as other than a moaning, worthless, subdued, conquered, pleading kajira? I trusted he had no sense of this torment within me.	10
9	64	And, I asked myself, why should I try to help it, why should I try to resist? Was I not a slave? Why should I not feel as a slave, yield as a slave? I heard myself gasp, and moan.	10
9	643	How fitting then that one such as I should be bought and sold, should be owned, and mastered! How else could I find myself? How else could I realize myself? Then misery surged up within me.	10
52	24	I had only wished to prove something to myself, to interest the fellow, to arouse him, and prove to myself that I could make him desire me, surely more than plain Paula, whom I would easily outdo, and then I, satisfied, the point made, having demonstrated my equivalence to, if not superiority to, Pa...	10
64	1	I hummed to myself, content, and busied myself with the small fire, kneeling near it, tending it, adding small sticks from time to time.	10

Book 35. (6 results) Quarry of Gor

Chapter #	Sentence #	Quote	Confidence
8	636	"And to think," said Euphrosyne, laughing, "I put myself into the sea, and might have been eaten by sharks! What a fool I was! I did not know! Who could have known! How glorious, how fortunate, that I managed to return to the ship! There is now nothing to fear!" I myself was not sure of that.	10
11	652	Almost immediately I had feared that I might have been taken from myself, denied to myself, and plunged into the loneliness, the estrangement, the alienation, the meaninglessness, the misery, the despair of freedom.	10
21	90	Was this some accident? Had I been mistaken for someone else? Who would wish to attack me? Who would wish to kill me, and why, I, a helpless slave? What had I done? Was this some terrible mistake? Was I, unknown to myself, involved in intrigues, plots, or schemes about which I knew nothing? Was I th...	10
27	172	I forced myself to the side, freeing myself of sprawled, bloody weight, that of he who had been the first man, his head half broken, half torn away, encumbering me.	10
33	622	I tried to go to my stomach, to force myself prone, and then to my back, to force myself supine, distributing my weight, but I could not do so.	10
37	89	Now who, I asked myself, would be likely to favor such an arrangement? And why, I asked myself, would I be here, doing what I was doing? And I was suddenly very afraid.	10